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Friday, February 24 @ 12:51 AM

^I will do my best to smile. No matter what happen.^

Hell Yeah. Holiday is here. My first holiday night.

Enjoy myself with the sleeping mood on the lazy mode.

The first day of holiday is not really good. Facing much problem.

Money. So wonderful but yet so threatening. I cant choose not to face it. Because this world cant goes without Money. I will stay on my side firmly. Not giving up or giving in to anyone.

I will get a job for this holiday. I know I need the money and I want the money. For him or for myself.

我喜欢夜晚安静的自由。白天的世界太吵闹让人无法安静。

夜晚的安静让我可以独自的自由想象。

没有任何人的吵杂声。没有必须面对的人。有的是我。自己一个人专属的空间。

在安静的城市，播着悲伤的情歌，静静的听着。这样的温柔似乎疗愈了我烦躁的心，安顿了不安的我。只有这个时候，我才能真真的放松。

如果心烦，不如也试着在夜里放松。

Peace,

Sinyi

Sunday, February 19 @ 11:30 PM

Happy Birthday to T.Sinyi

This year, I spend my birthday at home. First time sick during birthday. Totally no mood to go out and celebrate. Just wanna spend my day at home and rest my ass off.

At first, we got no plan to buy a cake as I'm having a serious cough. And yeah, mum say we should get one as I'm 20[lunar] this year. Therefore, she brought me one cake. But I only ask for 19 candles. Ahaha. Act one young.

My birthday wish:

1. Pass all my UT and graduate from RP.

2. Dad's business get better.

3. Everyone in the family to get really closer toward each other.

And so... I not being really myself [I guess so]...

I actually brought a fruit cake. People who know me, I always crave for chocolate cakes. Maybe because I'm sick. Totally no craving for chocolate.

Cant wait to receive the iphone cover that Bro brought for me. He say he giving it to me tmr instead. Okay, thank him much.

happy.birthday.

T.sinyi

Monday, February 13 @ 10:02 AM

On my way to school now.
And yeah, my cough doesn't seem to be recovering. That really bad.

Went to Malaysia yesterday. Sort of debt collecting. But nothing is collected. This is bad again. How many bad do I need in my life??
Went to fortune teller yesterday. Is not really fortune telling but I don't know what it is called. Just call it that first. Anyway, the main problem in my family is financial. He say that dad has been suffering much since the age of 52. Oh my freeaking god. And the freakin first thing he say is my dad very got 义气.
But he also say the money dad lent out will be 一去不回. Another #bad in life again.
And of course , he mention about the two kids which is bro and me. I guess he said really true about me. And ya, I like fat stuff. Lmao.
Hopefully got chance we go there again. He is freaking accurate. :))

Sunday, February 12 @ 1:35 AM

HOLIDAY ! :P

What I need to get it down before 17Feb2012:
1. PD - As my PD got rejected, I need to redo.
2. Study for Understanding Test Three.

What I need to do after Understanding Test Three:
WORK !!! GET A JOB !!! WORK !!!

And ya, my birthday is coming.
At this age, I totally no feel for birthday. Because I'm going be 19. After over the age of 18, I totally feel old. Before 18, you wanted so much be be there. But after you are 18, you just wanna stay. We shall see. Anyway, the date suck, is between UT. =.=

And I need my cough to be gone real soon. Been coughing for these few days. Throat seriously itchy much.

Another great day before my birthday is VALENTINE. Been spending this day alone for like 18 year. No worry for another one. But who wont want someone to be there for them at this 'special' day? I don't mind one but no hurry for one.

Peace Yeah,
SsinyiI

Tuesday, February 7 @ 11:51 PM

last day of school tmr. Digital Media Technologies~
Heard is gaming day. School will end early for us. Heard from classmate, might be organizing a sakae buffet trip. We shall see it tmr.

Hopefully, I will be able to find a job right after exam. I need to work man. For my phone bills, and ya, my own spending. Guess stuff I wanna get never end ah.

life been good. :) Just a short blog up.
peace,
SsinyiI

Saturday, January 28 @ 1:06 AM

Chinese New Year is over. [:

I did rest during the 4 days 3 nights.
But I didn't sleep well. Thank to my dad&bro. The two of them seriously need some sleeping position lesson. Both just keep squeezing toward my side. And I can totally fall off the bed. >.<

Fireworks was as great as last year. #ForeverNice
This year, sky lantern was also release. I didn't really get to release one under my hand. But yeah, I'm the one doing the filming.

I need to say I enjoy such occasions. Spending time with my cousins. Getting closer to them every meet up. Lesser awkward moment between us. Maybe because we are all grown up and able to accept one another better.

Yeah~ They are twin !! Both of them are madness cute ! BoyBoy is a very gentle boy. He talk really softly and sort of cry easily. HAHA. While GirlGirl is sort of opp. character of BoyBoy. GirlGirl is more active. And she got really a pair of beautiful big round eye. Whenever she want something, she will lower down her head and talk softly while she ask for it. We all did our best to reject her as she couldn't eat all the heaty food. #MadCuteness

Yeah~ The kids. Just like less than a quarter of kids in my family. And that Jiawei. LOL.

Now is the start of week 14. 2 more week for this sem. Year 2 will be ending soon. Year 3 will be here. I couldn't imagine that I'm gonna be a Year 3 student soon. I don't feel like one !
Things starting to get serious. I'm on a real fight for my future, for my life. Just endure over this year and life would be good.

P.S I'll be good.

SsinyiI

Saturday, January 21 @ 2:48 AM

Oh Yeah ~ Finally I reached the CNY's holiday. Assignment two came to an end. Although my code is not perfect but at least I got it done with Depit's help.
This holiday is like my most looking forward days~ Finally, I can have some sleep without waking up in the night thinking about the codes and stuff~

Don't know why but I seem very looking forward for this CNY holiday. Cant wait to go back Malaysia. :) Enjoy myself. Just spending days that you don't really have to think what you need to do next. Just go blank.

I would be spending 4 days 3 night in Malaysia. Going in on saturday. Still not sure if I'm going in the afternoon or night. :/ Anyway, I sure gonna enjoy myself.

Smile,
SsinyiI

Monday, January 9 @ 1:21 AM

First Week of school ended !!!!! And of course first weekend of 2012 ended.
Before I even realize, this weekend is already passed.
This week been a real busy one for me. Yes, I didn't study much during this week but did do something.

From Thursday to Saturday, I have been like staying in this booth more than I staying on my bed. HAHA. 3D is not a bad choice, I guess. I did enjoyed using all the equipments. Like a boss ahh~ And ya, that the special 3D glasses.

And during saturday, I rushed down to Somerset to meet the sec.co. Watched The Darkest Hour. Hmmm... it can be more scary as the name given. Didn't go with the rest for supper. Mum still waiting for me. HAHA.

And sunday ~ went out with them to library to do all the codes. Fruitful day. I did my work quietly at one side horrr. HAHAHA.

And here the second week goes. :)

byebye.
Will blog again soon.

SsinyiI

Thursday, January 5 @ 10:00 PM

Welcome back to school.

Back to school on Tuesday. Web Application Development. I'm lost from this module since problem 10. Seriously, I'm so not coding type. Not my cup of tea.

Wednesday went to Field Trip to Nee Ang City. Walked around Orchard and take different photos. Is even more tiring than school days.

Thursday. Should be my off day. Why do I even got Thursday as my off day?? :((
I was back in school at 8.30am for the Open House. I was in the SOI's 3D booth. Overall, I guess we are quite slack. Just have to do simple setup and show the students about the 3D. But we really eat too late. I'm hungry ! And sleepy at time, especially when there's no 'customers'.

Tmr Friday. Last day of Open House for me. Woohoo. This week passed fast. That good. Simply mean 5 week left with 4 week. And 2 more week to CNY !! I cant wait to be back home[Malaysia]. I'm so gonna have again my power sleeping rest in Malaysia.

is 10:08. Time to sleep. Night.

SsinyiI

Monday, January 2 @ 4:22 AM

HAPPY NEW YEAR. :)

2012 is here.

2011 is gone.

Okay, first question. How's my countdown??

Went to Gay's house to stay over. Ya, I know I said not staying over. But plan changed. Stay-ed instead. Quite a funny countdown. We don't really have the digital watch with us. So, we all beside the guys got excited when the clock show 2359. And after all the funny counting of the second, clock show 0000 !! HAPPY NEW YEAR! LOL.

And countdown, we went down to living. Catch a soccer match. Yar, I know is not what I will watch. I didn't watch finish that match. Didn't know who got that game. HAHA. So next is I'm playing monopoly deal with the guys and another side eavesdropping the conversation between Kaifeng and the girls. I can really multitask ah.

Up to the room with the monopoly team and sleepy team. We cant possibly play the monopoly deal for the whole night. So everyone down again for the Wii. Tennis is a nice game. I like it and now down with muscle ache.

For the very first time, I actually didn't get a place to sleep. I'm awake the whole night. Xinyi, Cheekuan and I just play Wii the whole night while Huimin and Calvin awake and half sleeping on the sofa.

And hey is morning, Breakfast by Gay's father. Thank lots.

And guess what?

Second question: How's 2012??

2012 not that good for me at the start. I guess I lost my bus card ! FREAKING SAD MAX. :((( I guess I dropped at his house. But Gay don't seem to find it. So where did I actually drop it?? HOLY !!! This is real bad. I haven told my mum about it. And how freaking am I going to tell my mother? It would be the second time if I got it lost again ! *fainting in process* I can really imagine my mum's reaction after she know the news.

So please let Gay find my card !!! PLEASE PLEASE !!

p.s 只要友情中出现多的，就不再是友情。

SsinyiI

Monday, December 26 @ 4:08 AM

One week passed. Christmas passed.
I'm still not done with my designs and storyboard. I need to start real soon.

As for Christmas this year:
Went to Gay's house on Christmas Eve. :) Short meet up with sec friends. Not many came. Jocelyn Yow not even there. :/
Christmas head over to Xinyi's house. Went for KFC with her and Huimin[joined later].

Guess the most common topic for girls after a long meet up is 'BGR'.
Congrat for those that not ending 2011 single.
As for singles like me, just have to end this year alone~ HAHAHA. Sound sad, right?
Guess the time is not right, still...

Holiday seriously passing real fast. :/ I need a longer holiday.
I applied for IEP. [attachment]. If I got the attachment, that meant I wont be having any holiday. But I really feel like having holiday. But why would they even choose me to be attached to any company. Confidant is lacking on me.

This week please be slow and steady. I need to get a sketchbook. Or can I just use back my old one?? :/

‘从新开始’ 好像也变得有点难。
单方面的 ‘和好’ 好像还是比不了单方的‘倔强’。

SsinyiI

Saturday, December 17 @ 12:03 AM

Amanda going oversea. :)

So GIF from jos and me.

AMANDA BYE BYE ~~

Wednesday, December 14 @ 9:25 PM

刚刚跟老弟吵架。为了买书的事。
事情发生的太快。就连我也忘了自己说了那些气话。好后悔。不应该吵架的。
原来就连我，他也打得的下手。原来我对他没什么大不了。原来‘姐姐’对他是那么的不重要。原来他真的不喜欢我。我真的很没用。
常常有人说我太爱我弟。可是我已经不知道怎么爱了。我做的每件事好像都没有在帮他。
我真的不知道这是大家所谓的‘变'? 还是我的‘宠坏’？
可是照我看，他也并不是这样的。他以前好好哦。弟弟好爱我。现在怎么好像是我不认识的人。
如果我没有退，他是不是真的会打我？
他不会吧。我没勇气想象。
如果他打我，我真的会。。。

他对妈说‘都听她的，她最好。’
这句话好伤。我真的不想做‘好的’。
是我让他这样的吗？我觉得他没有变。
只是想法多了。表达方式变了。可是我还是好痛哦。

我尝试冷静的说，可是对他只是我的伪装。
我真的好累。

我错了吧。弟弟还是弟弟的。

Monday, December 12 @ 11:40 PM

Holiday IS HERE

in 3 days

Cant wait for holiday to be here. I wanna my sleep.

Nevertheless, I still need to do my sketches & skeleton for my PD. :/

At least I got some time to spare for myself and sleep. I shall try not to go out in any way. I must finish these 2 work before I can give myself a true rest.

Recently, I feel like spending more time with my family. Accompany my bro because he is having holiday now. He said that wanna go prawning on his birthday. He bring his friends, I bring my friends. But like awkward max ar? And I don't know who can I bring. LOL. Guess not much people can can ton over night. :/ Shall think about it again.

最近看了两部电影【那些年，我们追的女孩】和【一泡而红】。

两部都很好笑，特别是【那些年】。里面一些黄色幽默让每个人笑到肚子痛！哈哈哈！而【一泡而红】对我来说很有熟悉感。因为我本身是马来西亚人。两部的演员都演的很好。

【那些年】　能拥有共同的回忆，看你幸福的离去，我也能笑着的祝福你。

【一泡而红】　无论怎么了，你还是我生命最佳女主角。支持你所要的，陪伴你的追寻。

SsinyiI

Sunday, November 27 @ 12:22 AM

Another week passed. Biggest News this week would be Evaluation day for PHP. I'm trying not to be nervous. I guess I did my best.
I didn't even realize that I didn't do finish the login page. My codes actually allow everyone to log in. I forget to compare it with the result. Eventually, the question given by faci is for me to fix the problem.
I spent quite a long time inside trying to solve. Faci keeps coming toward me and say 'It is okay if you cant get it now. You can always email me your changed code and just explain in the email about the changes you did. But if you want to stay and try, you can do so.' I know faci doesn't want to stress me. But I want to show that I really did the codes myself.
After doing lots of changes to it and still couldn't make it, I was on the plan to give up and just leave the room. Decided to try to run the code the last time and like pray hard in my heart. I'm like saying in my heart that 'OH DEAR CODE, WORK FOR THE GOD'S SAKE.' Miracle or whatever you call it, I'm able to get my codes. (Y)(Y) Freaking happy. :]

Went over to visit my cousins. I miss them. Even though, my plan is to get home and rest. I'm freaking tired. But I still went. I totally forget that Uncle rent one of his room out. So I as usual made a awkward moment out of my life again.

I was like playing with my cousins at the living room. And somehow not in a very good position and hair all over my face. The guy came out of the room. All the kids run over to him. And you know what? I'm left over on the sofa alone. The guy totally look at me and give me the what-is-she-doing-and-what-wrong-with-her-face look.. TOTAL AWKWARD.

Is already week 8 of this sem. Why suddenly time pass so fast without me knowing? How do I say that? I'm not really looking forward of working and all the pressure that eventually come when it come to the reality of working. I wasn't prepare. Although I always say that how nice to be able to work and got your own $ to spend, but I don't really want to work. As all the working experiences I had, I know working is a tough job of life. :/ Guess no one can escape from this job of life. Just hoping I doesn't need to change my job so fast to this.

I was given a order by dad to save $25 buck every months. Oh god. That for my phone bill. How nice is that? I know I need to be independent. FINE. I shall save. Who am I? Tee Sin Yi. I don't believe $25 a months would be that difficult for me. One day $1 also can. #jiayou Sinyi.

Thank to my lovely mum. She say she paying my first month for me. <3

也许因为不愿，而拒绝。

也许因为不服，而反抗。

也许因为害怕，而逃避。

但生命的考题不会因此而消失。

唯有了解自己，接受缺憾和面对问题。

你的人生才会有新的开始。

SsinyiI

Sunday, November 20 @ 8:01 PM

放下也许会痛，但会是往幸福的路。
曾经以为你是我的幸福，但惜乎是我搞错了。
这次我决定‘还是朋友’。

‘以前’对我来说不止是‘回忆’而是‘过去’。
这样的我改变了简单的友情。
那时的我太单纯。把你的礼貌和友情当作关心和爱情。
那时的我太幼稚。把对你的逃避变成了无聊的捉迷藏。

现在的，
我会找回大笑的我。
无论在你或朋友面前，我会笑的灿烂。
我会是你的朋友。像以前一样。
因为友情似乎比较适合我们。
你，我不再在乎。
我，会更快乐。
你，不必担心。
再见到时，请不要被我吓到。
因为，
我比以前勇敢。

SsinyiI

Thursday, November 17 @ 11:18 PM

回忆很凄美。因为太美而凄惨。
你很想念回忆，却回不去。
你拥有回忆，却无法重来。
回忆像海浪，一波又一波的来袭。
回忆像海啸般无法抵挡。

我就像困住般，无法挣脱。

Monday, November 14 @ 9:29 PM

I love Monday ~ This my first Monday off.

Finally I understand the happiness of having Monday off ! Able to stay up late on a sunday's night. No need to worry about waking up early on a Monday. That feeling is great. (Y)

Woke up at 12plus. Spend my day watching all the drama that only out on Monday. On the past, I always have to find my time to catch them as I have school on Monday. But now, I just watch whenever I want on a Monday. HAHA.

Will be watching 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 tmr with Amanda and Jiamei. Hopefullly, the 3 of us able to reach AMK in time to buy the ticket and then off for the movie. (Y) I heard is super nice?

I guess this month, I am really have so many thing on plan... Hopefully, next month would be better. I want stay home and do nothing. LOL. This totally a UT month !

I need study for UT tmr. Some real hardcore study. I haven been starting on any study for any module yet. Am I a bad student??

MONDAY ~

SsinyiI

Sunday, November 13 @ 10:27 PM

Another week ended. Did I mention that I need rest?? This week, I went out almost every single day again!!!
I ate like Texas chicken twice this week, 炸鱼米粉 twice a day, shilling chickens + chicken rice same day, and today eat again!! I really ate a little io much this week!!! I really need to save $$ before I even start spending them all away.

Oh Xinyi even come over my house for a sudden stay over on Saturday night.

Okay, I not having enough sleep. And I know who to blame. Beside me silk got who?

Okay, I guess I shall take a nap. Since my off-day is changed into Monday. No more Monday blues!?

SsinyiI

Saturday, November 5 @ 8:18 PM

lmt is bored, entertain her!

i am bored too !

Ask me anything